Please give me strength to carry on. I seek your approval of my plans. Bless them that they may take effect. Lead all my efforts to the fruition of my plans.
Please, Lord, make me bear the coming days, the days that I hold on waiting for the next big step. And Lord, as I continue with my life as it is, make me learn all there is to learn, and gain all there is for me to righteously gain.
Lord, I thank you for giving me this challenge. There’s a lot I’m learning and I can feel myself transformed. Those which I consider weaknesses are being addressed and are becoming less of my liability. I look forward to your guidance leading me to some place I’d be home and happy.
When I was in college and we would get together with some alumni, they would almost always mention how they miss UP and college. And I would think: “Yeah right! How could you miss gruelling exams, nosebleed-causing lab reports and never-ending thesis? I would most definitely NOT miss that.”
But now, I have to admit that I kinda do. But more than that (much more than that), I miss how life went back then.
I miss ChE and Eng’g. I miss the ecstatic joy of finally being enrolled every start of the semester. I miss the excitement of the first day of class - the suspense of not knowing who the prof is and if there would be any crushable classmates. I miss my daily get-up: a T-shirt, shorts/pants and slippers/chucks. I miss having the option of not going to class (heehee). I miss the Eng’g lib where we can steal a short power nap before an exam. I miss the ChE lab and the uncertainty of getting out of there alive (just kidding!). I miss the suspenseful time of waiting for exam results. I miss UP ALCHEMES - the old tambayan (okay, and the new one), the engg week fun, the Talents’ Night after-parties and the crazy Final
RightsRites. I miss our all-nighter study/hang-out sessions in our apartment, in Ministop or in Starbucks Matalino, never at the library. Thinking about it, I actually studied at the main lib once but I couldn’t take the pin drop silence.
I miss 81F -
Seems like I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognize my own reflection, no
Scared of love but scared of life alone
Seems I’ve been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it’s time for me to let it go
Yeah, I’m ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I’m ready to love again
Lady Antebellum. Ready To Love Again.
… you knew what can make you happy.
… you knew where you’d be happy.
… okay, I know whom I’d be happy with, I don’t know about you, but I can’t really be sure…:|
Gahd, I just feel so motherfucked as each day goes by. Magrapture na nga. Like now na! So I’d be over with everything! Hahaha.